Brooo.. not this newsletter finding me when I just got in from work, had a good 30 minutes cry, had my bath, cried again in the shower cos I just feel so alone and lonely and I literally have no body in my life to talk to, came out of the shower, cooked noodles and eat cos I will sha eat.
At this point, if anyone asks me "how are you?", my go-to response is that "I'm alive and trying hard to keep it that way" cos that's all I can manage right now.
But it is well sha. I really hope it gets better someday cos right now, my tired is tired and ready to give up at any fooking time 😨
I don’t know where you live, but there is likely a crisis line in your area that you could call to talk to someone and get connected to resources in your community! You don’t have to go this life alone! If you can manage some volunteering, that is also a great way to meet people and give meaning and connection and purpose to life! Sending you lots of love and courage and good wishes! You are so strong for surviving this long! 💝💝💝☘️☘️☘️🙏🙏🙏
I think I can relate to when people say some messages finds you at the right time,the tears coming out of my eyes are uncontrollable. The I love you entered my heart,I really wanted to hear that word from a genuine person,I needed encouragement because I it feels like things are not going my way. Thank you so much hauwa,I love you so much 🥺💖
This newsletter hit hard, it met me lying in the dark checking my WhatsApp when I'm supposed to be coding because to get a job, you have to have experience,but to gain real work experience you have to have a job. Guess who hasn't been coding because my mental health is shaking at the foundation? Me.
Thank you Hauwa💕, maybe I'll get better and code today,maybe this week will go to waste, Again 😌
I can totally relate to this Naomi. I’ve been learning UI design for a year plus now and I haven’t gotten any job not even entry level. Now, I’m not even motivated to design anything anymore because I’m honestly tired. At the same time, when I’m home and not designing, I feel like I’m letting my life go to waste. This is definitely not the adulthood I was promised. I don tire. Sending hugs to everyone here. Looks like we all need it🥺🫂🫂
Bruhhhhhhhhhhhh 😩 this is too relatable. I started learning in January 2022 and I'm still struggling to get entry-level roles and it feels like I'm not doing well in my life cos almost everyone I know who started the same time has gotten something. I have zero motivation to work and I've not coded this month, I know I should do better but I can't bring myself to do it😪. It's not like I don't want to work, I do but entry-level roles are difficult to get, foreign remote gigs will tell you they're not hiring from your region, wo I'm tired
Last night I was feeling overwhelmed. I went to shower and just started to cry as the water washed over me. You know the violent tears that shakes the core of your being? Yes, that kind.
I tried to go to bed and kept waking up, whimpering. I know where the pain stems from but I do not know how to deal with it. So, I turned on sleep sounds and forced myself to sleep.
I woke up this morning and I needed to take a break. To let myself do nothing. To just lay in bed and cry or binge Supacell or sleep. Bu5 I don’t have that luxury. My sister was working overnight so I was in charge of the kids today.
So, I went to get my 2 year old nephew to bath. As I sad down at the edge of the bathtub trying to get him out of his pyjamas, he said “aunty Doween sad?”
I ignored him because sometimes 2 year olds aren’t clear and I assumed I had misheard him. But then he said it again. “Is aunty Doween sad?”
And so I repeated it to him. Something we do when we want to be sure of what he said. “Did Zayd say “is aunty Doween sad?”
“Ya!” he responded.
And then I cried. As I held him in my lap. A silent cry because I didn’t want to startle him. But I think he somehow gave me permission to fall apart in that moment.
And for that, I’m thankful. It somehow gave me the ability to go through my day. And you’ve just given me permission to fall apart again tonight if I need it.
Thanks for writing this Hauwa. I somehow needed it.
Oh…hauwa..thank you so much for this..I lost my mum in April and i will be signing out this Friday and I’m currently writing my final exams..it has been hell for me cos I actually feel undeserving of this moment because she’s not here to experience it with me..this really helped a bit🥺
Brooo.. not this newsletter finding me when I just got in from work, had a good 30 minutes cry, had my bath, cried again in the shower cos I just feel so alone and lonely and I literally have no body in my life to talk to, came out of the shower, cooked noodles and eat cos I will sha eat.
At this point, if anyone asks me "how are you?", my go-to response is that "I'm alive and trying hard to keep it that way" cos that's all I can manage right now.
But it is well sha. I really hope it gets better someday cos right now, my tired is tired and ready to give up at any fooking time 😨
Please message me any time you feel alone. I am alone as well, but never lonely!
…and yet, I’m still alone!
My husband, brother and parents have all passed away, and I am alone, but not lonely!
We can talk! You won’t be lonely!
My name is Catherine.
I don’t know where you live, but there is likely a crisis line in your area that you could call to talk to someone and get connected to resources in your community! You don’t have to go this life alone! If you can manage some volunteering, that is also a great way to meet people and give meaning and connection and purpose to life! Sending you lots of love and courage and good wishes! You are so strong for surviving this long! 💝💝💝☘️☘️☘️🙏🙏🙏
Sending strength and 🫂 your way.
Hopefully someday it gets better.
You're strengthened for the days ahead.♥️
I hope it gets better very soon, very very soon. I hope it has gotten better already. 🍀🍀
🫂 that I’m alive is too real😭 because what else can you say for real 🥹 sending you hugs 🫂
I'm really sorry mhen🫶
The problemr rn is I don't have time to fall apart. I don't have any space on my schedule to fit falling apart
It's funny that I'm lying on the cold floor reading this; it's also funny how this newsletter came just when I needed it. Thank you, Hauwa🫂
I think I can relate to when people say some messages finds you at the right time,the tears coming out of my eyes are uncontrollable. The I love you entered my heart,I really wanted to hear that word from a genuine person,I needed encouragement because I it feels like things are not going my way. Thank you so much hauwa,I love you so much 🥺💖
This is the dose I needed to let the tears flow... Thank you Hauwa... I'd fall apart now and reassemble my pieces tomorrow...
Sending E-hugs to everyone who needs it
This came in at the right time🫂❤️
Thank you so much for this 🥹
This newsletter hit hard, it met me lying in the dark checking my WhatsApp when I'm supposed to be coding because to get a job, you have to have experience,but to gain real work experience you have to have a job. Guess who hasn't been coding because my mental health is shaking at the foundation? Me.
Thank you Hauwa💕, maybe I'll get better and code today,maybe this week will go to waste, Again 😌
I can totally relate to this Naomi. I’ve been learning UI design for a year plus now and I haven’t gotten any job not even entry level. Now, I’m not even motivated to design anything anymore because I’m honestly tired. At the same time, when I’m home and not designing, I feel like I’m letting my life go to waste. This is definitely not the adulthood I was promised. I don tire. Sending hugs to everyone here. Looks like we all need it🥺🫂🫂
Bruhhhhhhhhhhhh 😩 this is too relatable. I started learning in January 2022 and I'm still struggling to get entry-level roles and it feels like I'm not doing well in my life cos almost everyone I know who started the same time has gotten something. I have zero motivation to work and I've not coded this month, I know I should do better but I can't bring myself to do it😪. It's not like I don't want to work, I do but entry-level roles are difficult to get, foreign remote gigs will tell you they're not hiring from your region, wo I'm tired
It’s really tiring. I pray our breakthrough comes real soon🫂🫂
Thank you Hauwa
For writing to us, i needed to see this❤️
Last night I was feeling overwhelmed. I went to shower and just started to cry as the water washed over me. You know the violent tears that shakes the core of your being? Yes, that kind.
I tried to go to bed and kept waking up, whimpering. I know where the pain stems from but I do not know how to deal with it. So, I turned on sleep sounds and forced myself to sleep.
I woke up this morning and I needed to take a break. To let myself do nothing. To just lay in bed and cry or binge Supacell or sleep. Bu5 I don’t have that luxury. My sister was working overnight so I was in charge of the kids today.
So, I went to get my 2 year old nephew to bath. As I sad down at the edge of the bathtub trying to get him out of his pyjamas, he said “aunty Doween sad?”
I ignored him because sometimes 2 year olds aren’t clear and I assumed I had misheard him. But then he said it again. “Is aunty Doween sad?”
And so I repeated it to him. Something we do when we want to be sure of what he said. “Did Zayd say “is aunty Doween sad?”
“Ya!” he responded.
And then I cried. As I held him in my lap. A silent cry because I didn’t want to startle him. But I think he somehow gave me permission to fall apart in that moment.
And for that, I’m thankful. It somehow gave me the ability to go through my day. And you’ve just given me permission to fall apart again tonight if I need it.
Thanks for writing this Hauwa. I somehow needed it.
Oh…hauwa..thank you so much for this..I lost my mum in April and i will be signing out this Friday and I’m currently writing my final exams..it has been hell for me cos I actually feel undeserving of this moment because she’s not here to experience it with me..this really helped a bit🥺
Sending you hugs🫶🏾🫂
Thank you✨
It is well. Sending hugs to everyone who has had a rough time lately. 🫂
Sending hugs and prayers to all of us who are struggling 🫂🌹 please feel it all 😔 I hope we get the it and come out soon and even better 🫶🏿
I read this at the right moment. I have tasks choking me up but now I understand, sometimes we have to let go for a while. And it feels good doing so.
you're right. this is exactly what I needed. I'm glad I finally sat down to read your newsletters.
This was so wholesome to read. I hope those who need it get to read it.
Thank you Hauwa❤️😩🥹